recap

havent been posting here...

just an overview of what took place the past few days...

for today:

im bad since last night (tapos for today ung topic eh noh? ayos! ill make a connection, pramis! hehe!). this guy texted me... nangangamusta but i didnt reply. tapos isa pang text and i didnt reply ulit. then kanina nag msg ulit... tampo na ata ndi pa rin ako nagreply (i hope hes not reading this... pero kung oo, ok nalang din. at least he'll know "the whys"). syempre na guilty naman ako. hes been so sweet and nice to me pero dinedma ko lang pangangamusta nya. so sige, nagreply ako sa kanya and i said "sorry ndi me rep x x x dont wanna talk about it xxx". mukhang naintindihan naman nya bket wala akong reply and sabi nalang nya "ok, text me if may maitutulong ako". see that?! bait pa rin.

pero bat nga ba ndi me nagrereply? hes such a nice person naman, sweet and thoughtful. the kind of guy who'll come to the rescue pag kinailangan mo sya. sige, fine, given ng "extra attention" kami for each other as compared to our common crowd. thats exactly the reason why i have to put a stop to that "extra attention". kasi he's being sweet to me na minsan i dont feel like returning that kind of sweetness. ndi naman sa nag eexpect sya (for real) pero syempre, pangit naman na deadma lang reply sayo sa times na he's being sweet diba. at least man lang maki ride ako. pero minsan nga, kahit maki ride ayoko na kasi ndi naman un ung nafifeel ko. tapos may times din na he'll ask for things like hug ko sya (thru text man lang)... eh minsan i dont feel like giving it. kahit ba isang pindot lang ang "hug" message sa text, ndi ko feel. tapos misan he'll ask me if miss ko sya. eh syempre magtatampo naman un pag sinabi kong ndi diba? pero sinasabi ko "nope". hahha! bad ako. pero syempre, sweet din naman ako sa kanya minsan like i text him a simple "hugs" or na miss ko sya. totoo naman un.. i mean, totoong gusto ko syang hug and totoong miss ko sya during those times, or i wouldnt be texting him those.

pero lately i realized nastop na dapat. came to that realization when he didnt text me for a week. oo, true, namiss ko sya... pero ndi naman sobra... until before mag end ung 1 week na un, wala nakong pake kung magtext pa sya or ndi. pero nagtext pa din naman. dun ko narealize na maigi pang stop nalang kasi baka dumating ung point na masyado akong masanay sa attention na binibigay niya tapos biglang mawala lahat un. baka masaktan lang ako. lalot till ganun lang naman ang future naming 2 sa isat isa. sabi ko nga dati, i wanna be sweet with someone na i know walang limitations... i mean, na i can fall freely for that someone kasi available din sya to catch me. pero sa case ng guy na to, nope... mukhang hes not going to be available to catch me if i fall.

sad to think lang na sayang ung sweetness. pero like i told my friend, "great things start from small beginning". kaya kapag nag grow pa ung sweetness na un, baka magfall nako. bad for me. maigi na tong kinalalagyan ko ngayon na i dont feel for anyone. ndi ko sila namimiss. walang hinanakit. ok yan.

sunday, march 18:

hectic tong araw ko! morning exam ko sa laborel. after nun, exam ko naman sa investment law. so matagal tagal din akong nakaupo nyan (wawa naman likod ko). tapos nung nakauwi nako to rest for awhile, eh talagang sandali lang un dahil i ahve to go for mass na sa HP. eh medyo madaming tao dun sa mass na naabutan ko kaya nag national nalang muna ako. tapos mass na. then balik sa national to look for a book. natuwa naman ako kasi nabili ko na ung book na gusto ko... ung THE BRIDGE ACROSS FOREVER by richard bach. last copy na nila and medyo lumang luma ng tingnan ung book.pero ok lang, baka ndi ako matahimik eh. haha! got 65% discount for that! ayos!!! swerte! pag uwi ko, diretso ako sa bed. sobrang sakit na kasi talaga ng likod ko nun eh. hehe!

thursday, march 15:

eto, sobrang ive been wanting to write about this day na. ang saya saya ng araw ko!!! :) nagkayayaan kasi kami nila khalid, fred, jp and marcus na magdinner. so nagdinner kami sa malate... persian ata un. bsta mga shawarma na food and the like. ako lang babae sa kanila! haha! one of the boys! pero ang saya namin sobra! inabot kami till 12 ata un. eh exam week na un ha! hahhaA! basta, im so happy that night! sana maulit muli. hehe! sobrang saya silang kasama tsaka kumportable ako. kakatuwa talaga. luv u guys! yan ung mga tinatawag na "for rent boyfriends" ko eh. haahhaha!!!